Tasia's March 2006 Eviction Journal

Eviction Journal of Tasia
March 2006
for the Evict My Alien Love Child project

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Today I woke up with very sore thighs. I spent yesterday at Ceilidh, an SCA event in Dayton. I had a great time, ran around all day, talked with over half the people there and won the hand-kissing contest. I think it was my technique of getting down on one knee when I kissed someone’s hand that really helped me to win. I was extremely up when I got home last night.

Now I am crying my eyes out. My fifteen-year-old cat, Belgarath, died during the night. Brian found him on his pad and came up to tell me. I cried for quite a while and then had to go see for myself. I know Brian would not lie to me, but I had to see for myself and touch him to be able to accept the reality that Garath was really gone. I keep crying every time I think about him. I’m snuggling with his sister as I type this. I was so certain that he was going to outlive her. I had accepted that I would one day have only one cat. I just did not expect it to be Polgara as she had been so ill back in 2001.

Letting go of my much-loved Garath is very difficult. I did not want to bury him in our backyard – we are not going to live in this house forever. I couldn’t leave my fuzzy child behind when we eventually move.

My mom suggested I wrap him up and put him in the freezer to bringing him up to Michigan the next time I came to visit and we would bury him in the same place as all the other cats that died on the farm over the years. I couldn’t do this either. Every time I would open the freezer to get out food he would be in there. Plus, Belgarath had never lived at the farm. The only time he had ever been at the farm he lost his testicals and that just wouldn't be right (he was nuetered on a vet clinic day).

In the end, Brian and I decided to have him cremated. I want to be cremated when I die. We took Belgarath to Rutherford funeral home to be cremated this afternoon. Brian will make me a wonderful box for his ashes.

Once Belgarath was taken to the funeral home it felt like a weight was lifted off me. I cry when I think about him, but not all the time. I can remember all the joy and happiness he brought to my life.

I went out dancing this evening like I had planned. This was my first time going to the English Country Dancing group. I had known about them for a while, but something always came up that I did not make it to the dance. Last week I went to the dancing weekend and learned that I really like English country dances. Tonight I went dancing despite my sore thighs. Getting out of the house and doing something physical has helped. Besides, I had a really funny moment of weight loss success. I kept having to tug my underwear back up as they were slipping down my hips. Later while dancing my underwear fell off my waist completely and hung from the crotch. Thankfully, I had a long dress on and no one else could see this silly thing happen. As soon as the current dance was over I had to go to the ladies room and hike my dress up to be able to pull my panties back up. Adjusting my dress back down I laughed at another absolute sign that I am succeeding.

Getting undressed this evening I realized that I am treating all of my bras like they are pull over bras. I am not unfastening the hooks and eyes. Instead I just pulled the bra off while it was still fastened. There is no way I could have done this just a month ago. I’m really starting to feel like I’m smaller than I was.

This morning I weighed myself for the first time in over two weeks. I had not been weighting myself while on my period. I know I gain lots of water weight as I can see the puffiness in my hands. Since I am mostly over my period, today I stepped on the scale and let out a scream of delight. Fully clothed I weighed 287.0 – the same as I weighed completely naked when the PMS days were just beginning.

Of course, I had to immediately take off all my clothing and see what my naked weight would be. A very impressive 283.5 was the answer. Wow!

I have lost nearly twenty pounds since last November and I have not been counting calories. I have not been hungry, well, not for longer than it took me to realize I was hungry and go eat something. I have just been enjoying my food and not feeling that I have to be a member of the clean plate club.

Sometimes I am hungry and eat just a few bites and then don’t feel hungry at all any more, so I put the rest of my food away for later. I love leftovers. It is such as sense of security to know that I can go downstairs and find something yummy already made when I just plain don’t feel like cooking. A few moments in the microwave and I have a wonderful homemade meal all hot and delicious ready for me.

One of the things I have been consciously doing is that I am not eating prepackaged food, or only very rarely. The food Brian and I make from ingredients tastes so much better than anything we can purchase at a reasonable price in the stores ever does. Plus, nearly all the prepackaged food requires some assembly and making it from the start takes only a little longer with results that are so much better.

7 March 2006, Tuesday

I had to go see for myself that the weight loss from yesterday is real. I weighed myself again this morning and the scale still reads 283.5!

I have lost seven and a half pounds in just six and a half weeks. A pound a week is not amazingly fast, but it is real weight loss. I've decided to make a chart of my morning weights.

Better than the weight loss, I am actually feeling that I am really loosing weight. I am already seeing some of my signs of success!

Only rarely do I have to open the door because I can't get the silly seatbelt to fasten.

When stretching in the morning I can easily put my hands on the floor when I bend over. My feet are still spread due to the alien. I am not expecting to reach this goal really fast. I have quite a bit of shrinking to do before the alien won't force me to make accommodations for it.

I have noticed my clothing fitting differently several times already! I look forward to noticing this more. Hopefully, it won't be quite as silly as the underpants incident. Then again, even silly signs are definitely welcome.

I know this alien love child is going. It is starting to shrink. Once it is small enough I'm getting it whacked off!

8 March 2006, Wednesday
from an e-mail to my best friend Amy on the day I launched this site.

Amy,

I have loaded pages into the site and it is up and running. There will be some fixes that it will need. Please do a proof reading through the entire site. Let me know what I need to fix.

I am going to ad a graph of my weight loss.

How are you doing? I am already seeing signs of success. I am almost to the point of achieving the car door sign. Then again, it might just be that I have not been wearing as heavy a coat.

I am eagerly awaiting your visit. I want you to measure me again. Brian has offered, but I think I want to share the moment with you. It is already not fair that I have a scale that can weigh you and you don't.

Now that the site is up I am hoping that someone makes a donation soon. I am thinking of earmarking some of the money to get you a scale like mine. This way you can know you are making weight progress. Plus, since you say overeating is your problem, having a scale you can weigh yourself on every week I think will help you stay on track.

Remember that scene from Star Wars? Even the Death Star could be destroyed when Luke stayed on target. Stay on Target! Stay on Target!

I know you can do this Amy.

Please give me a call Friday morning. Thursday I will be delivering my paper route in the morning and I am planning on going to clay in the evening. IF I finish the route early I might call you before you take the boys to school.

Love ya,
-Tasia

10 March 2006, Friday

I have been working late this week on this website and my business's website. Many nights I have gone to bed after 3:30 in the morning. Last night I was up to 4 am. This morning I paid my sleep debt. I did not have anything scheduled so after taking a call at 9:48 I went back to bed. I woke up feeling great. It was nearly 3 pm. I slept the equivalent of two nights sleep, one night before the call and another after that call.

Last Saturday I had gone to an SCA event and worn my contacts. For the drive home I changed back to my glasses. Within an hour the headache that I seem to have all the time lately was back. I suspected my eyes have changed and the prescription of my glasses is wrong.

Yesterday I confirmed the solution to the mystery of why the heck am I having headaches all the time. I went to the eye doctor and, as I suspected, my prescription has changed. This was not a complete surprise. When I lost all the weight back in 2000-2001 I ended up changing my prescription several times.

Since I am ordering new lenses, as my glasses are not correct, I decided to wear my contacts today. I played with my makeup and tried a black eyeliner pencil as lip liner with bright red lipstick. I'm not certain I like it, but makeup washes off and I felt like a change.

I finally went downstairs about 4 or a bit later. Since I have not eaten yet I decided to step on the scale. Being fully dressed I thought if it says 287.0 or less I'm doing great.

It was 285.0. You know what this mean – time to strip and see what the naked weight was. I decided to experiment. Taking off just my shoes dropped my weight to 283.5 – the same as my morning naked weight Monday. I know that my naked in the actual morning weight might not be as low as this afternoon, but I have to see what it is. I stripped to my skin and wow! 281.5 is actually lower than I ever was while going to that local "gym" before I started my paper route.

I'll weigh myself tomorrow and see what my real naked morning weight is. I am not expecting it to be this low.

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11 March 2006, Saturday

I said I was not expecting as big a drop compared to my last morning weight. However, I was thinking I would have some drop. This morning my weight was 283.5 – the same as Monday. I am disappointed, but I am just going to go for a walk and stomp out my frustration.

14 March 2006, Tuesday

Yesterday I completely flunked food. I hardly ate anything all day and did not drink much water. I felt terrible all day. I probably would have felt better had I actually eaten more.

It is 7 pm and I realized that I have not eaten properly today. I have only eaten twice today. I had a salad, a hamburger patty, and four or five glasses of hot water with lemon for lunch about 11:30 and a snack of cashews and one gummy orange slice around 2:30.

I have been up in the crow’s nest (my attic office) working away ever since. I talked with Amy on the phone. Amy insists that I go eat something.

Amy is really doing her job as my coach. I know her bad food habits and she knows mine. Where she over eats, I am the chronic under eater. This bad habit sabotages my metabolism and can slow or stop my weight loss. I’m going to stop writing now and go downstairs two flights and make myself a significant dinner.

16 March 2006, Thursday

Today I did something new and amazing, at least to me. I delivered my paper route from one parked location.

I was able to put more than usual in my carrier’s bag, as the paper was thin. I did my normal first section and still had papers in my bag when I was back to the truck. I loaded up as much as I could carry and was off for the second loop.

At the usual turn around location I had more than half the bag of papers left. Instead of turning back toward the vehicle I kept going on another street. I finished off that entire street and was almost back to the truck on the first street when I ran out of papers.

At this point I decided to just reload again and finish my route. I was able to put all of the remaining papers in my bag. The paper is so thin today I did my entire route in just three full bags.

I know that I will only be able to do this on the rare thin paper days. However, I can come back to my truck many times and do the entire route again from one parked location. I am not expecting to do this every week. Just once in a while when the weather is perfect and I feel really energetic.

Then again, I have been climbing nearly every porch steps each week. Who knows, I might do it again next week?

17 March 2006, Friday

Naked morning weight is 283.0. I’m down half a pound this week. Not bad!

Last night I finished the cat water bowl I had started for Garath. This was started about a month ago. The first attempt smashed before I even trimmed it. This one I threw the Thursday after he died and trimmed tonight. Once I had it trimmed I carven into the bottom:

18 March 2006, Saturday

This weekend I am down in Cincinnati attending a Science Fiction convention. I’m selling buttons with saying on them to finance the trip. I’m having a great time and am doing great on my plan.

The hotel has a very nice weight room, which I used this morning. I was amazed that I woke up at 7am after going to bed at 2. I had opened the curtains deliberately so the sunlight would wake me. It worked and I woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed. I went and got the key to the weight room and had a great workout.

After a shower I went to breakfast before the girls I am sharing a room with had even woken up. The hotel’s continental breakfast was mostly grains. Since I have determined that I not ever eating wheat again all of the Danishes, bagels, French toast, and such were not something I was interested in eating. However, they did have hard-boiled eggs and cream cheese for the bagels. I cut my egg in half and put the cream cheese between the two sides and viola – I invented a convention omelet. I could also do this when I go camping.

21 March 2006, Tuesday

Guess what? I’m in Michigan right now. I came up to help my mother out on the family farm with winter clean up.

I told Mom about Amy and me working together as weight loss buddies and that I wanted to see Amy while I was up here. Mom said she would like to send the two of us out to dinner at Elias Brothers. Actually my mom treated Amy and me to dinner and a shopping trip.

It was funny that after reading through the menu Amy and I picked the same thing for dinner. They make a very good chicken vegetable stir-fry. We caught up on taking about things and I told Amy about Mom giving me money for the two of us to buy clothing.

We decided to go to K-Mart as it was not too far away and would be open. We really picked the right store. K-Mart was having a 30% off all clearance items sale that night. I found Amy two shirts that were marked down to $1.50 new, less 30%! We also found some really soft stretchy shirts in the men’s department that look great on her. I got one of those shirts as well. Actually, Amy and I ended up getting one shirt the same and one pull over exercise jacket the same.

It was absolutely wonderful to see Amy. I can hardly wait until we get together again. In just two weeks Amy is planning on visiting me in Columbus. Her husband, Chris, is going to be super dad and watch the kids all weekend.

24 March 2006, Friday

I have spent most of the past day asleep. Yesterday I did my paper route and went back to bed. Thankfully, Brian had stuffed my papers for me on Wednesday night as I had come home from Michigan and gone straight to bed. I missed the ballet that I had a ticket for. I have not been feeling well and I did not even look at my schedule book yesterday, so I didn’t realize that I was supposed to be going to the ballet.

I called the box office to see about getting a ticket to tonight’s performance. I explained that I was ill and did not make it to the ballet last night. The lovely man on the phone is going to let me have a ticket at no cost. I will pick it up at the will call window before the performance. Today is looking like a really great day. Now, if I can just find a replacement ride for the event tomorrow the weekend will be perfect.

I did remember that today is Friday this morning. I went downstairs and weighed myself before breakfast. I was stunned! I jumped off the scale, re-zeroed it, and stepped back on. Yep, it really does say 279.5.

25 March 2006, Saturday

Today I had planned on attending an SCA event the Spring Royal University of the Midrealm. However, my ride fell through and I did not have the money for the gas to drive myself. There are days when I really wish I still drove my old ’92 Geo Metro. Three cars and ten years later and I still miss it.

Instead, Brian and I had a "Firefly" festival. We checked out the DVDs from the library and watched all the episodes. Other people had told me about this show when it was on cable. However, cable is not, and never will be, in Brian and my budget. Now, having actually seen the show, the movie makes a lot more sense. We will have to check "Serenity" out from the library again.

28 March 2006, Tuesday

It is official. I am in the throws of PMS. I am grouchy, irritable and feeling mean. Yesterday I was just grouchy and sore. This is just perfectly timed. Periods always pick the absolutely most inconvenient time.

Amy will be getting here early Friday. I was planning on weighing both of us and seeing where we are compared to the last time we were both here. However, I am not going to step on the scale. I know that I will be up five or more pounds since last Friday. I already feel puffy. Thankfully, there are over the counter medications that will at least make me feel human and not like the complete demon bitch I currently feel like.

I also wanted Amy to measure me. However, I feel bloated all over. I will have to decide if I want to be measured while feeling blimpish.

Hey, maybe this period will hit before she gets here. One can only hope. That way we could do the measurements on Sunday with at least some of my bloat gone.

29 March 2006, Wednesday

My paper and my period both arrived today. By 2:00 this afternoon the paper had arrived and I was already bleeding. I had an inspiration. Since I had begun the blood festival, I decided that if I could get my route done today I would not have to do it during the worst day of the festival.

Brian helped me bag up the papers and after a snack I was off to deliver them at 4:15. Today the paper is very thin again. Two hours later I had finished off the route and I did it again from one parking location! It did not feel all that light, but it was thin enough. I was completely wiped out when I was done. More importantly, I do not have to do my route tomorrow. It is done today!

This is my personal sign of spring. I cannot deliver the paper in the winter on Wednesday evenings as it gets dark too soon. Today I delivered the paper on Wednesday for the first time since last fall. As long as the paper gets here early enough, I will be delivering it on Wednesday.

31 March 2006, Friday early morning

Amy is coming! Amy is coming! Amy will be here TODAY! Thanks to some donations Amy can afford to come visit me.

It is 3:00 AM and I’m so excited that I cannot fall asleep.

I have just finished all my paperwork to send in my name, device and badge for the SCA. I was just going to spend a few minutes finishing off the last of the documentation I needed to do for my name and suddenly I realized it was way past midnight.

However, I am just too excited to go to sleep. Brian is snoring next to me, sound asleep. I normally am out before he even gets to bed. Tonight our roles are reversed as I was up working hours after he zonked out.

Amy’s visit will not be fun if I am too tired to do anything with her. I have to go to sleep now.

31 March 2006, Friday evening

Amy is finally here. I say finally as Amy is seriously directionally challenged. She has driven here many times. It is a bit over a 200-mile drive. However, today she missed a turn and got lost just 10 miles from my house. Thankfully, Chris made her get a cell phone so she was able to call me for help.

After I phone piloted her in she made it here just before 6 PM. I was a total grouch when she arrived. I desperately needed to take some PMS medication! Yep, this period sure did pick a fine time to be happening. Needless to say, I did not weigh myself this morning.

Amy and I have made plans for tomorrow; we are going to go check out various gyms. She had seen an ad for Bally Total Fitness where they are only charging $19 to join and $19 a month. So, the two of us are going to check out the Bally in Columbus and see if we like it. I also want to see about a gym I have been hearing an $11 a month ad about: Victory Fitness Center.

We are going to watch my DVD of Sugar and Spice this evening. Amy has never seen this classic comedy. I like it so much that Brian bought me a copy on eBay.