22 January 2006, Sunday

This morning I weighed myself naked. I feel that the only real weight is naked morning weight. What I eat and what I wear change on an everyday basis. Some days I drink a quart of water at breakfast, other days I have just a cup of tea. Thus, I am only recording naked morning weights. My weight this morning is 291.0 pounds.

This is four pounds less than when Amy witnessed me weighed myselves yesterday. There is no way I lost four pounds overnight! All I did was sleep, go to the restroom and not get dressed before I weighed myself. There is no way in the world I have actually lost four pounds since the 295.0 scale reading yesterday afternoon.

Now, when I went to this one weight loss program they would have cheered and celebrated this four pounds. They would try to convince me that this was real weight loss.

I am only interested in really shrinking my alien love child. I really want it to go away completely and never come back. I want to evict it from my body. I am not going to let it trick me into thinking I am making progress when all I did was take off my clothing. Nope, this time that alien is being served eviction papers.

24 January 2006, Tuesday

I cannot say how wonderful it was to have Amy here this weekend! To have my best friend fully informed from the start she can be my cheerleader and confidant. With her to back up my resolve I know I can actually reach my goals. I will shrink myself down to the size I want to be. By this I mean a size 12. I do not want to be some unrealistic model size. I will do this by following the plan I developed and having Amy watch my back, and watch my backside shrink.

I lost over a hundred pounds in the past. I did it with diet and exercise. I can do this again! However, this time it is going to be all the way to my goal -- and I am going to stay there.

I am going to be a shrinkie dink girl. Just like the toys I loved as a kid I will shrink down, but not too far down.

Amy’s call and tale of what yesterday was like helped me a lot today when I spilled my peppermint tea all over myself in the car. I had added my left over tea from the Red Cross to my last 20-oz cup of hot water and lemon from lunch. The plastic lid did not seal completely and when I picked it up it spilled some. No big deal I thought. I sipped some of my mix as I used up every napkin in the car mopping up the mess. I put the cup back down in the cup holder.

When I went to pick up the cup for another drink later I doused myself in tea as the cup fell away from the lid, which I still had in my hand. At first I was going to get real angry, but then I thought of what Amy overcame yesterday and was inspired. Instead of crying, I started laughing and joked that I had just taken a peppermint bath. Normally I like my baths piping hot, but peppermint baths are best when cold. Fortunately, by this time the tea was cold. I was also parked in the car and was not actually driving when this happened. It definitely could have been much worse. Of all the things I could have spilled all over me, peppermint tea is actually rather nice. Plus, the car now has a pleasant minty smell.

26 January 2006, Thursday

Last night was a disaster. I did great all day, then late last night I got the total munchies. I don't tend to get the munchies. I think the alien is trying to fight back. However, I am not letting one evening’s snack attack of four peanut butter cheese crackers, one chocolate mint candy and two hot dogs derail me. OK, so I ate more than I intended. The world is not going to end.

Today is going great. My paper route went well and I have actually increases the exercise value of it. I was thinking about the fact I am doing a paper route for exercise and decided if I am doing it for exercise why am I not climbing the steps at each house? This is gypping myself of some of the exercise I can get while doing my route. Once I had this thought, I started going up and down each house and apartment’s steps. Even with all this extra work instead of tossing papers at the porches I finished my route in two hours and twenty minutes. This is within fifteen minutes of my record time when tossing papers.

26 January 2006, Thursday – evening

When washing my face I felt this hard spot on my face. I looked at myself carefully in the mirror and I discovered my cheekbones. I can visibly see and feel a difference in my face already. The side of my cheekbone has appeared.

Real results real quick. This is so wonderful.

27 January 2006, Friday

The scale confirmed my observation last night. My naked weight this morning was 290.5 pounds. Hey, I’m down half a pound and I can see it.

I’m going to a new dance tonight – the All Soles Columbus Contra Dance.

28 January 2006, Saturday

I danced my feet off last night. I danced all but two dances and refilled the water each time I did not get a partner for a dance. I will definitely go back for this group’s dances again.

29 January 2006, Sunday

Morning naked weight is 288.5. The big drop is due to my period having started Friday and my bleeding insane amounts on Saturday.

Better than the scale I can feel that I am loosing weight. I can feel my hipbone! To the side of my alien at the front top of my leg my hipbone is touchable right under my skin.